Day Off + Things To Do (x many) = Fuck It.
I went to the General Cemetery instead.
and plenty of sun flare.
It's been a while since I visited, but this place always calls me back.
Trying to explain it to someone who has never been and doesn't share the Victorian Graveyard Love makes me sound like a freak. So be it.
It felt a little different; much of the overgrowth has been cut back and some trees have been cropped.
Necessary, I know, as part of the ongoing renovation work, but part of me regrets the loss of the wilderness...
although there is enough left to enjoy.
I went to enjoy the silence, only to find myself sharing the space on this occasion with more than the occasional dog walker.
A gaggle of school girls with their teacher working on an art project; a chatty man with his over-friendly if delightful dog; a couple of young women sharing a fag on a bench as they rehashed the events of the night before and planned their future festival tent arrangements; and two drunk-ish men with a supply of cans.
No matter - they all passed through and left me to myself.
Having posted photos of the cemetery before ( here, here and here), I was interested to see if I could see something different this time.
There are some gravestones I hadn't spotted before.
Ubique is the motto of the Royal Artillery Regiment; Army Pensioner George Myers had been at the battles of Sebastopol and Inkerman during the Crimean War.
The shield-shaped headstone is for Annie Paine, Adjutant of the Salvation Army, promoted to glory April 25th 1914. Interestingly, there is a second inscription underneath for Helen, beloved wife of Major Jonah Evans, who died a year after Annie. Sisters? Secret lesbian lovers? I'm hoping for the latter.
And if I have already photographed most of the graveyard, I can always tinker with effects.
I know how she feels; I feel like shaking my fist at that non-existent God too.
I had a brief scan over my recent blog posts and was struck by how dull they have been; a dirge of repeat complaints about how busy I am, and tired apologies for poor blogging form. I'm boring myself, never mind you.
1960-70s lurex maxi skirt - Ebay
1970s velvet jacket - Leicester vintage shop
Sunglasses - vintage market
Ankle boots - charity shopped
I need to just stop. I don't intend to stop blogging, it's too precious to me - the friends, the conversations, the connections, the inspiration and ideas, I need them all. And I need this outlet for whatever nonsense is circling around my brain too.
But I am keenly aware of my lack of presence in the blogging world, and I feel guilty, frustrated and disappointed.
I'm going to wait until I can do this properly again.
Please don't bother trying to find her - she's not there.
Hopefully it won't be too long.
And I hope you'll wait for me.